i realised that i cant be left alone to think. i cant. cos my mind will start wandering. the whole class out for oral today, then only me and ng left in class, i switched on the speaker and played out music. then i settled down and do the hmwk that i owe laoshi. do do do do do.... suddenly, i dunno why my mind go blank and start thinking abt IT again. i realise that i wasnt anxious today, it's more of xin fan yi luan.
while i was still into my stupid memories,ppl came back, pack bag and left.leaving only me in class.went back to seat, stuff my ears with music and start thinking stupid things again.think think think...haiz...whalao... i actually think till i started tearing.then rbc woke me up by asking for her phone.gr8.but nvm, she stopped me frm thinking for a while.quite thankful for that though.hope she din see the tears in my eyes, guess she din anyway.gave her the phone, packed my bag and just walked off.i heard ppl bidding me goodbye, but i dun hav the mood to reply.PPL WHO I IGNORED JUST NOW, IM SRY. REALLY. JUST WASNT IN THE MOOD TO REPLY.everything i done was for ur sake. but now...haiz...
