i guess we'll nvr learn to treasure till we lose it...

i really dunno. feel like crying out loud. dun ask me why. i jus feel likr. i dunno why im feeling so... like that. really.

wore no.1 today. FIRST TIME! damn hot. but i dun mind it at all. i was trying to enjoy every moment of it. 6 more days, to ROD. i suddenly dun feel lyk passing out. really. i wish time can jus stop right now. at least O's will nvr come and we will nvr hav to pass out.

damn! shouldn't type the 2nd paragraph. now i can't hold back my tears. pics and dialogue frm the past keep flashing past my mind now.i suddenly thought of our first activity, the first time we share a pear tgt, when esh pass out in front of me. even though the scene is funny and im watching a v funny show now, IM CRYING, really. thought of the first time we got promoted, thought of our first ROD parade, thought of ouf first sec 1 camp, thought of the first activity when we took over, thought of our first camp as specs. IM REALLY CRYING V BADLY NOW! haha. can't stop even if i want to.

to DELTA'06, if u ever see this, i wanna tell u. i will really miss ur ppl and our times tgt. it holds my happiest and the saddest moments. i din really treasure ur ppl b4, but now even if i want, im only left with a few days. sry if i nvr treated ur ppl really well b4, sry. if i can start all over again, i promise i'll nvr do all those things that will make ur sad, really. forgive me for i those things i did to tense things up. im sry. i regreted it. i regreted not treasuring our 'mobil' moments tgt. now, it'll NVR happen again. mobil is no longer ard and those feelings we hold as plt mates are gradually lost as we became specs. i really miss our cadets life. why din i listen to our snrs b4 and treasure ur ppl, nut i guess we will nvr learn to treasure till the day we lose it... i jus realise the real meaning of it today. but i guess... it's too late.

i guess my tears are practically used up for the whole of nxt week. wait type till here for now. will blog again l8r bah...