collected my ic just now. when i went to collect my ic, saw some f***ing small bird there. i hate her to the core. i jus went into the G.O and pretended that i nvr seen them at all.

i just realised why ppl keep saying that they hav flying dreams and i dun. i jus read an article on dreams, they experts say that flying dreams mean that u are happy, that's why i nvr had flying dreams b4. bcos i was nvr happy in my whole life. i finally get it. i hope those ppl who hav flying dreams will treasure them bcos i will nvr have them. hope those ppl will stay happy always and trouble-free. my dad ask me why i didnt smile when i took photo 4 my ic? how to? when i was nvr happy?

shalln't talk abt depressing stuff.

my cousin is coming over tmr. she wants to go town wif me and my sis tmr. that is IF we're gg tmr. if we gg tmr, then i will be xchanging the tissue pack for the ALL ABT LOVE movie tiks. i want to watch, i seriously want to watch. i simply luv charlene. i luv her. haha... i am madly in luv with her ady. charlene is so cute , pretty and lovable. WAIT! im NO LES! im straight, rmb this...

even if i didnt manage to change for the movie tiks, i will change it for the notebk, this way i can even see her when taking down notes. haha... thinking of what to do tmr in town. wander arnd?

maybe i will jus dash out into the road and make the car end my life. but i will stain the poor car and make my family members heart-broken. and i wont even die as a whole. maybe get smashed up. oh man, reminds me of mash potato. haha... in ketchup? sadistic me... laughing at my own death. haha... but maybe aft i get smashed up, i might be getting a flying dream 4eva and ever. but im not so selfish as to sacrifice my family member's laughter and happiness jus for a dream.

nvm... lazy to type ady. maybe tmr. as a smashed up me flying in the sky. haha... will i ever be happy?